I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times

Sometimes, just out of the blue, I'll feel as if a hole opened up in my heart, and then all the past memories just keeps pouring out uncontrollably. The smallest thing can trigger it off, happy ones, unhappy ones, it just makes you feel as if you're consumed.

I have been trying to come to terms with myself. After all, it's been a year and a half. I'm really happy where I am now, with who I am with. But sometimes, just sometimes, the memories just catch me off guard.

I've been trying to put everything behind. I've been trying to come to terms with what happened. I've been trying to remain on cordial terms with you. But sometimes it's just so hard.

Part of life is regret, is sadness, is longing. But sometimes we just have to accept things as they are, put our own desires aside, and move on.

I guess we just need more time.